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Monday, September 28th, 2009
Sep0909	Stole this from Amanda :D Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People. (but don’t say their name) 10. I really wish that i talked to you more instead of being mixed up with my stupid self. i miss you so much. I don't think their will be anyone else i trust as much as i did you. 9. It's really strange that i knew 'you' for such a short period of time and you impacted my life as much as you did. I miss you a lot. and good luck with everything. Still miss those longs walks even though that wasn't exactly the real you. 8. You're really inspiring!! You make me wish i had more time to make a difference. 7. It's like i've had a non-sexual crush on you. i guess what i'm saying is i wish i was unique like you. 6. I think you're a complete slut. period. excedeing 20 people is just plain sick. 5. I question you're motives. I don't know what you're tryna pull girl but I'm certainly not jealous. 4. Ethan is a complete fool to be missing out on you! 3. I wish you could stop thinking about you for once and think about me. for a second even. 2. Thanks for just being an all around cool guy. Seriously youre one of my favorite people ever. 1. I hate when you text me. i just remeber all those gross things you used to say about me. Nine things about myself: 9. I take things to the extreme. 8. I'm kinda insecure. really insecure. 7. going into the cosmetology field 6. I'll do whatever it takes to stay tan. lmao. 5. latinos ♥ 4. teal is my favorite color. 3. lazy. haha real with it. 2. eastern tech grad? 1. would do anything to help someone out Eight ways to win my heart in relationships. 8. Be trustworthy/trust me 7. be sweet 6. have good manners 5. 'don't lock me in a cage' 4. make time for me 3. have fun ideas 2. make me laugh :D 1. want to be with me Seven things that cross my mind a lot. 7. Jesus♥ 6. $ issues 5. Monday and Tuesday :) 4. my mimz 3. If i'll be in trouble or not when i get home lolololol 2. how to change the negativity 1. what the fuck i'm going to do with my life Six people who mean a lot. (in no order whatsoever) 6. Jamie! 5. Jesus! ♥ 4. Annie! 3. Papa Dosch! 2. Mike Mike 1. My Mimzzz! Two things you want before you die. 2. to amount to something 1. have a family One confession: 1. i'm not as confident in my future as i lead on
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Tuesday, August 18th, 2009
Aug0809	oh today today today! ( today was soo good! ) Current Music: lmfao+pitbull- i'm in miami bitch
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Friday, May 22nd, 2009
May0509	It's been a while it's just me venting...so save yourself if you don't care. My mood's are so up and down lately. i never used to be this way before. It's been a tough year for my family. With My mom's car accident and my grandma having cancer. Hospice stepped in a week ago. :( That always means thier chance for survival is small. It's so sad to see someone you love and were so close to die. To go in there room and say hi and them just stare at you blankly like they never seen you before. She honestly is the closet relative i had. The closet friend. I can trust her with anything knowing she would never tell a soul and not judge me for it. Then theres things with Jesus and I. We'll be up and then really down. I've never been in a relationship before where my fidelity was ever in question. It's weird not being trusted...and the other person not having a legit reason to not trust you. I just would never do that. I'm too in love with him to do that. I can honestly say I am in love. The odds are against us enough..like age and him not being a part of this country. So it kills me when he starts petty things like to forget him because he knows i'm not in love with him. Then i gush about how much i am. I think he does this on purpose. I'm so stupid and naive. Sarah tells me i need to learn the game. haha. but i'm always the one that does all the gushing and then they always walk away. I feel like i try so hard. Maybe i try too hard. Or maybe he doesn't try hard enough. Then theres work. which i'm absolutely sick of. That used to be my favorite place to be. All the people and all the money. Now i know all the people too well...and we're in a fucking recession. Oh and probably my biggest issue! I'm about to graduate... and i have no clue what i'm going to do next year.
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Monday, February 23rd, 2009
Feb0209	things are catching up with me. i don't know... I'm just really bummed. I have detention this week but it's whatever, i guess. Just figuring out how to tell my mom that on top of everything else thats happened. I really wish my mom didn't get in that accident and that my grandmom gets better. I also wish i wasn't such a fuck up. Put I'm trying to stay posi: -My mom will probably come to her senses when things with the courts and wahtever are over with -my grandmom has a lot of hope! -I can always change my ways -He swears he'll wait -i got 3- 40 minute detentions instead of 6- 1 hour ones for my honesty -Things always end up working themselves out -School will be over in 3 months
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Monday, February 2nd, 2009
Feb0209	Okay, Real Quick! what is on my mind: -Senioritis in full effect -Skipped today with Phil and saw The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, then went and spent a whole bunch of ca$h at the mall. Feels good to be friends again with him again. :) -HATE CULINARYYYY! -Things with Jesus and I are goood. Well, okay. jealousy and double standards aren't sweet. but hey. -Had a long talk yesterday with the lovely LG and glad things with her and i are fine. -Thinking about prom already, possible limo with Danielle ? -Working all day valentines day and counldn't be more excited. i ♥ $$$ -Not sure how i feel about religion these days. :/ -I don't want school tomorrow ... or ever for that matter. -I want to see Love in thoughts really bad. I have the strangest obsession with foreign films anymore. -anyone have any idea where to get a polaroid camera?????? I've been searching like crazy because my dad broke mine. Haven't had much luck in finding a new one since you know they aren't going to make the fucking film anymore. Prime time to look for a new one, right? -German and I are having issues on and off again. -I don't fucking like it when someone wants to have too much say in my life. "Love in thoughts"
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